Fear
I tried to talk with my wife this evening. I showed her Bisexuality.com. Don't know why, I guess I'd hoped that she'd see that other people on there were normal, trying to figure themselves out too.
The problem is twofold: she doesn't understand, and she's in denial. Though she won't admit it, she's probably scared. Lord knows I am. Rather than tiptoeing around the subject, I have fully embraced the fact that I am a bisexual man. For me, this is a *huge* thing, and she just seems to think it's like discovering that you enjoy a certain flavor of tea. "Oh, OK then, let's get on with life . . ." The problem is I can't just "get on with life."
I don't know what to do. It's not that I want to act on these attractions, I'm married, for goodness' sake! But this is a BIG THING for me. I can't just say, "Oh, OK. I'm bisexual. Now back to my regular programming." I just don't know what comes next, and my closest confidant is not available for discussion.
On the other hand, maybe I need to stop thinking about me so much in this, and think about her. Maybe I need to reassure her that I'm not going to change into a different person; that she is still and always my one and only.
Something to think about as I go about my night . . .